Well, I’m not too sure what I write. But I guess its like a not so private/personal diary that if wanted, the whole world can see. hmm.
Today I went to work. I work at a Motel – I do housekeeping. Like strip the rooms and then make them all pretty. So today it was sort of busy but I finished at 11:45am. So that was good.
Right now I’m in between places to stay, so I’m staying at my youth leader’s flat in town. It’s okay. But I feel like.. like I’m invading..
Life isn’t easy right now. I got kicked out of my last home, because of pathetic reasons but to sum it up, the lady I lived with didn’t really understand the meaning of unconditional love. Nor did she understand that if your trying to help someone, when you put them down and be hard on them.. IT DOESN’T HELP! So thats why I’m trying to find a new home and also why I’m living with my youth leader.
Last night I talked to my best friend, Chris, for like an hour and a half. He lives in Kansas, USA. He is so amazing, he is really supportive and extremely caring. I love him heaps.
I miss my old self. The one who was oblivious to the pain others can cause, the one who was innocent enough to just get by each day without breaking down and crying. Without knowing how hard the next minute will be, but yet managing to get through it in suspense of the next one.
I wish I could be who I was.. even though I don’t truly know who that was.. I know that, that girl she was faithful to herself by not letting others hurt her. I’m on the quest to find me again
Signing off now.
A.
