hey,
So.. Tonight I arrived back from Auckland.. I slept in till 11:15am, lol so I’m not too tired.
I’ve been talking to George (g-bear, gummy bear, Mr. george, etc..) on yahoo & bebo.. and he is well.. he is amazing.. and even that word cannot describe him well enough for my liking but I’m cold and my brain is a tad slow.. LOL. He lives in the UK and we have been talking for a year and a half.. he really is so just freakin’ awesome.. he is the most caring sweetest guy I’ve ever known, we talk to each other about soo much and its just so cool that he trusts me with stuff he tells me.. and that I trust him with stuff no one else knows either.
ANYWAY tonight we were talking about what his Bebo Profile says.. “I Want Someone To Love.. Who Loves Me Just As I Love Them.. Is It So Much To Ask For?..” So I then commented him and said:
Anna: I love you like a bee loves a flower
*giggles*
George: Bee’s Scare Me ):
Love You
Anna: awww
they scare me too … but shhh dont tell anyone
i was just trying to show the greatness of my love for you mr. george
cause a bee loves a flower.. a lot tbh.
George: Aww Yays ^^
I Love You To (:
Anna: do you loves me like i loves you?
giggles
George: YesYes I Do (:
xo
Anna: then it answers your profile mr. george..
but i know what you really mean though..
tbh..
your absolutely amazing, and you deserve the best of the best & sometimes the best things in life you have to wait for.. and I KNOW that waiting is the hardest part of it all, but atleast when the best comes.. you will realize that it was worth the wait, the lonelyness, the pain, the tears, & the days where you just wanted someone, anyone , the perfect person to walk into your life and that day never seems to come.. but trust me george.. that day will come.. I promise you.
a.
So after I said that, it kinda got me going.. and since then I have been thinking about it a lot and just.. writing more down.. Because I know what george is feeling.. and I guess you could say I know it a little too well .. but To ANYONE who reads this (part from lizzy and chris 
lol hehe) I know that its hard its really hard.. but I’m positive that one day it will change and whatever.. whoever I’m waiting for.. whether it be real love or it be the perfect man or the whole in my heart from my mother abandoning me and hurting me filled.. I know that when what I’m waiting for comes.. all those nights crying myself to sleep over lost love, or past hurts it will be worth it.. and thats what I’m looking forward to.. I know that whatever we all go through there is some kind of light at the end of the tunnel.. but more importantly there is hope for that light..
I’ve only just begun realizing and believing in that thanks to a very good friend of mine, Ana. She has given me so much hope, the kind of hope you can never lose.. that you can never be without ever again. She is my angel. She has given me glow-in-the-dark stars to light my way to the end of the tunnel.. even when I’m alone, in the dark tunnel, scared and maybe lost my way I can just look to the ceiling and see the stars and know there is hope.. there is going to be a day where it will be better.. it will all be better..
Signing Off.
A.
