Venting- Six Word Style. October 14, 2008

They start from the bottom. So read UP not DOWN. I did these in about 5 minutes while listening to the song that started it all. Because Of You – Kelly Clarkson.

Because Of You Mom: Blaming Myself.

Because Of You Mom: …I’m me.

Because Of You Mom: I’m Ashamed.

Because Of You Mom: Built Walls.

Because Of You Mom: Panic Attacks.

Because Of You Mom: Life’s Empty.

Because Of You Mom: Dad’s Depressed.

Because Of You Mom: Foundation’s Crumbling.

Because Of You Mom: I’m Traumatized.

Because Of You Mom: Shop Alone.

Because Of You Mom: Childhood- Stolen.

Because Of You Mom: Don’t Eat.

Because Of You Mom: Self Hatred.

Because Of You Mom: Stability’s Unknown.

Because Of You Mom: Mentally Ill.

Because Of You Mom: Disorders; Medicated.

Because Of You Mom: I cry.

Because Of You Mom: Nightmares Repeat.

Because Of You Mom: I Self-Harm.

Because Of You Mom: I’m hurting.

Because Of You Mom: I’ma Liar.

Because Of You Mom: I’m fake.

Because Of You Mom: Crying- Weakness.

Because Of You Mom: I’m Lost.

Because Of You Mom: Trust- N/A

Because Of You Mom: Sidewalk- Safety

Because Of You Mom: 11years Abused.

Because Of You Mom: I’ve Fallen.

Because Of You Mom: I’m Broken

Because Of You Mom: Heart’s Miserable

Because Of You Mom: Mistakes Made.

Because Of You Mom: I’m Afraid

Have You Forgotten.. October 7, 2008

hey, So i have been meaning to do a blog & will do soon i promise just wanted to share this poem i wrote today.. its kinda towards those who bullied me/ ‘parents’  its the first poem i’ve written.. just spare of the moment without intention in like.. 5months.. so yeah..

 

Have You Forgotten – Anna Salisbury 08-10-08

 

Have you forgotten the times you put me down,

When I would hide my face walking around town.

Have you forgotten the times when you forgot to pick me up after school,

When I was 9 sitting lonely and scared waiting for you.. looking like a fool.

 

Have you forgotten the times I cried myself to sleep,

When your words repeated in my head when all I could do was weep.

Have you forgotten the nightmares I had, the pain I held inside,

When your face’s all haunted me, unwanted memories screaming while I cried.

 

Have you forgotten the first time you saw my arms,

When from that day on my lies began to combine with my charms.

Have you forgotten that your believing every single lie I tell,

When the truth would be told if only you asked, cause we both know i’m not doing well.

 

Have you forgotten that I have no happy memories from my childhood,

When you allowed me to be medicated at age 10, my leg’s would twitch as I stood.

Have you forgotten that I chose to be in foster care just to get away from you,

Have you forgotten.. Because I haven’t.

 

Tell me what you think about it okay.

xx

A.