hey, So i have been meaning to do a blog & will do soon i promise just wanted to share this poem i wrote today.. its kinda towards those who bullied me/ ‘parents’ its the first poem i’ve written.. just spare of the moment without intention in like.. 5months.. so yeah..
Have You Forgotten – Anna Salisbury 08-10-08
Have you forgotten the times you put me down,
When I would hide my face walking around town.
Have you forgotten the times when you forgot to pick me up after school,
When I was 9 sitting lonely and scared waiting for you.. looking like a fool.
Have you forgotten the times I cried myself to sleep,
When your words repeated in my head when all I could do was weep.
Have you forgotten the nightmares I had, the pain I held inside,
When your face’s all haunted me, unwanted memories screaming while I cried.
Have you forgotten the first time you saw my arms,
When from that day on my lies began to combine with my charms.
Have you forgotten that your believing every single lie I tell,
When the truth would be told if only you asked, cause we both know i’m not doing well.
Have you forgotten that I have no happy memories from my childhood,
When you allowed me to be medicated at age 10, my leg’s would twitch as I stood.
Have you forgotten that I chose to be in foster care just to get away from you,
Have you forgotten.. Because I haven’t.
Tell me what you think about it okay.
xx
A.
Hi Anna……..was looking to find out how to blog and came across what you wrote. I’m thinking of blogging and might one day. Depends on how complicated it is.
Have you forgotten – Wow……it tells me a lot about your past. For me it was sorta the opposite. Most of it can be something I could write about my daughter and how she…..she what……well, turned into a liar, thief and when at home everyone was uncomfortable because it was like ok what kind of crap is she gonna start now. I want go into detail other than to say at age 28 she became a decent human being. I was really bad for me and my wife and her younger sister. Sorry to be writing about a promlem I had.
Now…..when I read what you wrote I see some of what you mentioned being directed towards my grandaughter. Her Mom in trying to keep her from being the way she was is trying too hard and in doing so berates her over little things and what’s worse she does it in front of whomever. I’ve told my Daughter that by the time April is 14 she will hate her. She is 12 now.
It’s tough seeing someone you love Dearly make bad mistakes. Even harder is the fact my grandaughter is on the receiving end.
Back to you……….being medicated. They tried that with my younger daughter when there was really no problem. She was very smart and curious. Just as all children are. They just did not want to go the extra effort towards a smart kid, although sometime annoying. Aren’t we all sometimes. Any way she now runs a Demolition Company in Dallas. She is a real go getter.
You my Dear………. I don’t know how old you are now or when all the things you wrote about occured. Really don’t need to know your age. If all you wrote is true then you got a rotten deal. I’m glad you wrote it because you are on the path to putting it behind you and getting on with your life. I hope you understand it is also a cry for help. Nothing wrong with that.
Now….. You are gifted. You express yourself very well in words. I beleive the words jumped out onto your paper and that it came easily and actually required litlle thought.
I wish you well. I wish you love from those whom you want it from. I don’t know you nor do you know me. Tiny bit about me. 61 yrs old…3 heart attacks, 5 stints in my heart. I’m a happy person mostly but there are bad times to. All in all Life is good……it’s got lumps and bumps but I have learned to not let things get to me in a mental way ( as in growing old and dying early from a bad heart )……. I am lucky in many ways. I have spirit which I wish to pass on to you.
Yeah…….I can ramble and confuse even myself sometimes.
It will get better……… Never give up……..fight your butt off and kick some ass when you gotta.
Oh Yeah……… what you wrote…..it was honest and sincere.
Did I like it ? Yes…….but not because of what you had to live with, but because you are reaching out. I hope you can forgive those who have done you an injustice. I hope they see through your eyes just once.
Well…….. I’m a idiot myself sometimes and I just Love it.
Best wishes……….. Jimmy James — jimpop48